What do you believe in? Fate? meant to be? I truly do. Seriously, I believe in it so much that I use it in my daily life like If things don't come easily for me then I don't think they should happen. I never try to fit a square peg into a triangle shaped hole. For instance, like buying a car, I test drive it, I like it, I call back the next day and it's already sold so I shrug my shoulders and chalk it up as not meant to be. If there's a long line or detour- not meant to be, if something doesn't go as planned or flow easy, not meant to happen. In my business life I use it too like when an awesome wedding inquiry comes in and I sweat it for 3 days and then they get back to me with "we went another way", yes, it stings and for a day or two it felt right but in the end, it just wasn't meant to be and the people passing me by made room for the ones who don't. More importantly I use it in my soul, my center, myself, my happiness.
What am I getting at? I believe this photography gig was meant to be for me. It's never been a trend or glamorous. Although it was a long road of learning and processing who I am as a photographer, and it wasn't always pretty, it all did happened fairly easily.
20+ years ago when this beautiful girl, my cousin who was around 7-8 years old I photographed her with my fancy Kodak 110 camera me being super-cool-in-my-own-mind-older tween self age 11-12. I dressed them up in silly dresses, wigs and make-up we found at grandma's. I photographed her and her sister and my sister all posing like glamour shots. ( I begged to get my film developed ASAP and I still have proof !) Amy went on to beauty pageants and modeling, (no surprise there she is gorgeous) and here I am, a wedding photographer. Needless to say, our Grandma is not surprised. But perhaps the most exciting thing to happen is now we are grown up and have our own lives and kids and Amy is going to be a mom soon and here we are, me taking her photos again. She is more gorgeous and glowing than ever and I just know this was all meant to be.